Suffering

In this world there will be pain and suffering, trials, sorrows; take heart (I am with you) because I have overcome the world… John 16:33 – I have this verse constantly in my head. I wrote it down the way that come to my mind often.

It has become apparent to me in this season that suffering is something that no one escapes. We face pain, tragedies, traumas, sorrows and more as children. We are somewhat tormented from our teenage years. We struggle in our young adult years. And we have unexpected circumstance hit us during our adult/middle/late years of life. No one ever tells us how be on guard for when things will get hard. We often expect that if we work hard, change behaviors, work it out we will be happy and there will be no trouble.

The things is we live a broken world. There is sin, evil, and suffering every where. Our emotions are also tricky because they can react in unexpected ways to all this so we torture ourselves more. So what can we do? How do we handle it? How do we stop for suffering even more?

So many questions in this topic of suffering. And for many of feels so overwhelming and unfair and mean and cruel that we have to see it, live it, experience it….

Here is where I go with it. I acknowledge it. I feel it. I cry. I pray. I talk about it with others. I see it straight at its face. And I Bring to Jesus on my knees.

The reality is that we must address it with something bigger and more powerful. And for me only Christ.

It is not going to stop as long as we live in this world. There will be suffering but you can choose to fight it. Seek help. I seek God, first. I seek others. And I trying to find ways to release my own internal suffering. We will never be fully complete in this life but we should not let the shackles of suffering hold us either. For God also has good plans for us in this life.

Here is my final thought. Truly seek what is truth. Allow other in who know God. And even when suffering is around you, there will be something deeper and stronger in you that will help you endure, pass through and help other too.

Peace to you in this trying time.

Love

Love is a life long learning journey….

Love can start as a feeling that eventually becomes an action and through out life it takes on different shapes, sizes, smells, tastes, and touch….

Love looks and feels different for everyone. We might think we know how to love but life has a funny way of showing us that love can change and evolve with time. We all feel love in different ways and we need love. We were created to be loved and give love. But how do we keep up with giving and receiving love a we change and grown? This can look so different for each individual…

I have recently been shown that the way I want to love someone is not necessarily the way they feel love or need to be loved, so I pray for wisdom in this area of my personal life…

I want to learn how to better love the special people in my life. I want to speak my beloveds love language. I hope to act with true love actions that make them feel safe and valued….

So, here is my prayer:

Lord, thank you for all the special people in my life. You have blessed me with their life’s! Thank you for my husband and my kids. Bless them with your love. Teach me how to love them best. Teach me how to provide them with a safe space and show me how to listen to their needs…. your know their hearts, minds and souls, guide me to see them and love them better 💜🙏🏻

In Jesus name, Amen

My prayer, my hope, my dream…

I love Psalm 142…

142 I cried unto the Lord with my voice; with my voice unto the Lord did I make my supplication.

I poured out my complaint before him; I shewed before him my trouble.

When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, then thou knewest my path. In the way wherein I walked have they privily laid a snare for me.

I looked on my right hand, and beheld, but there was no man that would know me: refuge failed me; no man cared for my soul.

I cried unto thee, O Lord: I said, Thou art my refuge and my portion in the land of the living.

Attend unto my cry; for I am brought very low: deliver me from my persecutors; for they are stronger than I.

7 Bring my soul out of prison, that I may praise thy name: the righteous shall compass me about; for thou shalt deal bountifully with me.

This Psalm felt so good in my soul this morning. In this world there will be trials, suffering and pain, but God is faithful and He listens to our cry. My hope is His plan for my life, no matter the circumstances and what life throws at me. I know I will persevere with Jesus in my heart. My dream is one day, no more tears and no more suffering when this world pass. No more tears for everyone I love and no more pain for those that hurt. I hope and I dream for what heaven will bring… 🙏🏻💜

Sadness…

It is sad when I see so much hurt and pain…

It is so sad when I cannot help the ones I love…

It is sad when the kids are scare of what they do not understand…

It is sad when I do not see you…

It is sad when wounds are reopened….

Sadness feels my heart tonight…

Love letter to my dear child

My dearest sweet girl,

I am so thankful for your life. It is a privilege and honor to be your mom. You gave my the title of mother and forever changed my life. When I had you I was able to experience love in a new and unexplainable way. I did not know love like this. It’s a kind of love that expands, grows, reaches to deepest core of one’s heart. The love a mom feels for a child is a love that makes you get on your knees to pray, it’s a kind of love that shows you true sacrifice and it’s a love that will never end, no matter what.

As I see you grow and think about you getting older, I hope and pray that you will have joy, companionship, success, love and much more in life. I also hope one day you get to experience many joys and blessings; and perhaps one of them is motherhood.

As I think of all this things I also hope that one day you find someone to share life with. I pray that you find someone that loves you for how wonderful, loving, passionate, kind, smart, beautiful and generous you are, my dear.

From my personal experience loving someone if not just a feeling but also a choice, an action, an everyday decision, and sometime a true sacrifice. Love is patient, kind, gentle, honest, forgiving, and much more. Love is not perfect and it can be hard but I have learn that it endures through much.

You know life is full of many great and challenging, unexpected things that will come. We make plans and that is good, but remember to keep everything meaningful, simple and flexible because not everything will go our way. With this said, I want to also share a few thoughts and opinions about intimacy. I want to share this because I was not talked to about intimacy and I want you to be aware of what is true and what might not be true.

First I believe sex was created by God as a gift to a men and a women for their union as husband and wife. It may seem old fashioned, but I have strong reasons to believe this. One, having sex is the most intimate action you will experience where you give yourself in body, mind and soul. It’s a gift that once you give it, it cannot be taken back. And if you keep giving this beautiful gift it’s like giving a little bit of you each time. Now, when it is a gift to the same person like a husband, the gift only gets better as you share it. In my opinion, if you give it to different people and they don’t appreciate it, it’s more like losing a little part of you each time. You see, the more I have shared intimacy with your father, the better it has become, because how much our love has grown.

My sweet girl, I also want to share that having sex is not the same as what you might see on television or what a friend might explain to you. I have a responsibility to tell you the truth and I want to be honest with you in this area of life. The first time you have sex it most likely will not feel very good. As time passes and you continue to have sex and start to understand your body, and your partner also learns with you, it will grow in joy, fun, love and pleasure.

Communication will be so important when you are intimate and I honestly believe that if intimacy is shared with the right person, it will bring great joy, love and pleasure for both persons. One more thing that I wish someone would have shared is, when you are married and you love the person and both parties consent AND what you are doing doesn’t hurt anyone physically, then anything is “fair game.” This was a “game changer” for me after many years of marriage because of the way I was raised.

Growing up as a conservative Christian, I was very set on waiting on having sex until marriage. I hope you consider this and I am here to talk more about it. No matter what I will always try my best to be there to listen, support you, help you and guide you.

It has been my experience that when I was young I thought I knew so much but as time has passed and I have lived through many seasons of life, I realize how little I knew. I would encourage you to wait in area of life you might not know how to approach and to seek advice from people who have already walked ahead of you.

I have one more thing to share, and that is the more I have allowed God to guide me, the more surprised I have been on how life plays. His timing and ways are different than my. He created me therefore He knows me better than I know myself and He wants what is best by more than anyone in this world.

I have been blessed with you, and I have been trusted with you, so my hope and desire is to always protect you, guide you, help you and love you the best way that you need. So, if I feel this strongly, imagine how much more the one who created you feels these desires. If you question God’s love and ways, seek Him, question Him and ask Him to show you, to lead you. He will meet you where you are if you seek earnestly.

Finally, always remember that I love you. You are a piece of me, and even though this sounds funny, I feel very closely what you feel and I know you well. And no matter how old you are and how much life has happened I will always love you!!!

Your mamma 💗

A miracle…

Have you ever experienced a miracle?

I have seen many miracles. And just like the Israelites I still question God or walk away from Him.

We are so prone to wonder, like sheep. We walk away from our blessings, our good gifts, our healthy friendships, our family and our love ones. We need a savior who can put us in the right path every time we wonder away. We need to stop and open our eyes to all of our miracles. We need to humble ourselves and seek Jesus.

Only God can give us true guidance and good gifts. I see my children and I see true miracles. They were chosen by God to be my personal miracles and blessings. Praise be to God, for such good gifts!

Creation is another big miracle, that we often overlook. Can you honestly believe that we just appeared, without a creator? A creator who was so detailed in every little living thing. I was an awe yesterday when I saw the water droplets on the grass sparkle like diamonds as the sun was shining on them. Amazing creation!!

I stared to think about miracles this morning as I was cleaning the kitchen and I heard a song. It was more about needing a miracle. We are all need of miracles. We need personal,spiritual miracles where God comes and touches our life. Maybe our behavior, maybe healing, a circumstance, a love one, so how can we as for this miracle? Humble yourself and go to the feet of Jesus. It is the best place you will ever be once you get there.

I have prayed for miracles and I have seen many. It’s not magic, where just ask for whatever, you must surrender to Christ. You must give all of you, heart, mind, body and soul. And then, if you believe God will answer. Just remember it will be on His timing and His way, which often looks different than what we might expect. But what better place to be than in His hands fully surrendered!!

Here is the song I was listening to…

Well, late one night, she started to cry and thought he ain’t coming home
She was tired of the lies
Tired of the fight, but she didn’t want to see him go
She fell on her knees and said
I haven’t prayed since I was young
But Lord above I need a miracleWell no matter who you are and no matter what you’ve done
There will come a time when you can’t make it on your own
And in your hour of desperation
Know you’re not the only one
praying Lord above, I need a miracle
I need a miracleHe lost his job and all he had in the fall of ’09
Now he feared the worst
That he would lose his children and his wife
So he drove down deep into the woods and thought he’d end it all
And prayed, Lord above, I need a miracleWell no matter who you are and no matter what you’ve done
There will come a time when you can’t make it on your own
And in your hour of desperation
Know you’re not the only one, praying
Lord above, I need a miracle
I need a miracleLa la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
Whoa oh
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
Whoa ohHe turned on the radio to hear a song for the last time
He didn’t know what he was looking for even what he’d find
The song he heard gave him hope and strength to carry on
And on that night, they found a miracle
They found a miracleLa la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la
Whoa ohIn your hour of desperation
Know you’re not the only one, praying
Lord above, I need a miracle
Lord above I need a miracle

: LyricFindSongwriters: David Carr / Mac Powell / Mark Lee / Tai Anderson

Love is greater ….

Love, Amor, Adore…

I know love in 3 different languages but do I feel love in 3 different ways??

Yes!! I feel love from my children,

I feel love from my husband,

I feel love from my God….

Love is so much more than a physical touch, it’s spiritual…

Love is deeper than anything we can dive into… it’s also taller than anything we can climb.

Love is what makes us who we are….

For God so loved us that……

And we so loved that …..

You fill in the blanks, for love 💗